SUFFERING Why, the question always asked when something happens to cause suffering.  This world is where suffering breeds and there is no pill I can take to be immune against suffering.  There are no solutions although the world sells a bill of goods mostly through advertisements, philosophical views based on good reading and my desperation to avoid suffering.  Escaping suffering does not come from a new car, looking younger, having loads of money, having every new thing on the market and the like, which are suppose lead to a place of happiness, peace, a place of euphoria.  All this does is give those who sell the bill of goods a headache of how to maintain their wealth and status.  I have found for me my sufferings are from: ·        My decision making process that is usually not well thought out and I realize too late I am in a mess causing much suffering not easy to escape.    ·        My suffering came from blaming everybody and everything including God.  ·    

PAPA GOD I pray to Papa God daily in my prayers however, when I am in big time trouble I seek Him as a daughter to her papa for He is the only one who really knows me inside out.  Whatever, the crises I am going through I trust He sees the bigger picture through my stress and anxieties and my faith assures me in His perfection, there is a light at the end of my doom and gloom.  In this past year a lump appeared on my abdomen and like any nurse I fell into the trap of self-diagnosing the problem and came up with it was a hernia a condition I am prone too.  I was told go to see a doctor here in India an idea that was fearful to me.  My fear stem from the unending bad reports and problems brought to light about hospitals, outdated medications given, reusing of needles and the list goes on.  I know in my head that all Indian Doctors are not bad they are faithful and dedicated to their calling to serve the sick however, my heart and head were not in sync.  I continue to balk

WHY The burning question that torments the mind of the elderly is the word WHY.  In the vulnerability of their age and heaven knows their illnesses and disabilities their lives are stacked on a mountain of uncertainties.  The WHY to this is fathom in the forgetful minds of their children and families.  They need to feel safe and secure not living on the edge of feeling disaster will strike and no one cares. The wide spread of mental and physical abuse can only be measured by the coldness of the heart that feels empowered to exercise these evil deeds.  Money foremost drives the power of rejection and abuse.  If the elderly have money, property etc. the abuse is shadowed by the lurking hearts of wanting it all by inheritance and many use every opportunity to cease the moments in the weakness of the elderly to deceive, while giving them little or no true heart of love and caring.  These evil doers have to make sure some semblance of decent care is given not to raise a red fla